I'm having a pretty stressful week...

I dunno why, but it seems like everyone's true identities start popping up this week.

First it was an assignment. I can't believe someone could be SO irresponsible. It's just a fucking memo. You can fucking type it in like... fucking 15 minutes? I gave you 2 days, even the number of the person who could help you with the memo. But right before the due date to pass the folio, you fucking told me that you don't know how to do it? You lost her number? Sounds like you were being a lazy ass and wanted someone to do it for you. Thankful for you I was willing to do it, because it would effect my marks since it was a group project. I'm never going to let you be in any group with me in the future. Only know how to study, but no responsibility. You're gonna be a sucky doctor, let me tell you that.

Then, there are the liars. I fucking. hate. liars. She can easily say a lie. I know she knows I know, but I'm too kind. I keep thinking, 'it's just a small matter'. I'm too easy to be taken advantaged of. I need to be more tough.

Next, it was the business project thingie. I mean, it's a group business thing right? At least help others by actually sending all the boxes of doughnuts to the orderers room. But you were being selfish and lazy and practically left it at the dining hall for people to take, only taking your part of the order and sending it to people who ordered from you. Thank god someone told me she had a missing order and I bothered to check the dining hall. I know you have another activity later that day, but the boxes will just take 10 minutes of your time to deliver. I was already tired from going to Sunway to pick up the doughnut orders, you could at least help us by doing this small, insignificant act of kindness.

All complains are no fun, no? So I'm gonna start on compliments now. One friend of mine (I would say that his heart, mind and soul are in the right path, may many good things come to him in the future) was willing to run all the way to 2nd college to get a rogue order for his seniors. Imagine, running from 6th, going to 2nd, and running back all the way to the faculty. And our leader, he may act indifferent, but I know he has put much effort and time into our project. He was also taking part and helping in other events. Kudos to him. And another female friend. She was always on time, and helping out with the boxes and orders and never complained. She was even willing to sacrifice her time when we went to make the orders, when we asked her to follow us impromptu on the spot.

We need more good people like them :C
I hope I can be as good as them too. I know I still have room for more improvement. And I need to control my anger. I get pissed too easily. But I can only vent my anger by complaining on my blog. I just wanna say 'Shut up you bitch' out loud, but I know I won't do it, cause I worry so much about how others look at me. *sigh*

Holidays~

It's Merdeka hols now <3

A week of no classes, no lab practicals in the afternoons <3

Too bad there's an exam after the holidays, boohoo :C

Convo tomorrow...

My final year buddy is getting her Ijazah tomorrow. And I still haven't finished drawing her card.

I'm a lazy ass :C

Trouble in UM...

Security has gotten tighter in UM lately. Students from the 1st-3rd years are not allowed to bring their cars into campus. They can only go through the Damansara (PJ) gate all the way till 10th college. Anywhere further than that, you'll be stopped by the guard and asked to turn around or be asked for your identification. It really shocked me when I was stopped the first time in campus. I was following a friend to drive around campus in her car, but when we passed 10th college (near the komplex sukan area there), guards asked us to stop and asked for our identification. I was just eating dinner before the short trip, so the only things I had with me were my Kad Makan and my room keys. My friend didn't even bring her driving license (although I did asked her if she brought one before she left, but she told me 'ronda-ronda campus je. Takyah guna lesen). Who knew, kena tahan pulak. So the conclusion here : always bring your driving licence whenever you wanna drive.

Anyway, back to the point. UM has been doing something to curb the congestion in campus. Seriously, after the guards appearing, there has been less trafic around my faculty. The number of people double, triple parking has been reduced. Greatly. But the are a few problems that arise from this matter. Students who were alrady bringing cars (those from asasi, 1st, 2nd and 3rd years) couldn't bring their cars in campus. Or else they'll be fined RM50. My friend got it already. Fortunately for me, I don't have a car with me at the moment because it was sent for repairs. Talk about timing!

But UM's (or can I say, the VCs?) decision is not a win-win situation. Maybe after a while the commotion might die down. Or maybe people wouldn't care much if they have cars or not in campus. Or people will still complain and complain and complain, but not giving any suggestions or any form of help to better the situation. But for the moment, I'll just wait and see what'll happen... and I'll be car-less for the moment!

Your opinion?

I saw this article in DAP's Lim Kit Siang's blog.
(concerns medical students of UM)

What's your opinion?

Remembering back the days...

My friends from school who just finished form 6 are now getting ready to get into university. For most of them, it's their first time leaving home and staying someplace new. It somehow reminds me of the days when I had to leave home for the first time: when I had to go for matriculation.

Since my brother already went ahead of me the year before, I had little trouble with the preparations. But the thought of leaving the comforts of home were kind of troubling. Heck, I think I had trouble sleeping on my first night. But after a while I got used to it. Well, who wouldn't eventually?

I remember the hectic day of registering. I came in a bit late, and somehow lined up at the wrong block for registrations, causing me to get the topmost floor, at the very end of the corridor. But I guess that was a blessing in disguise because the room I got had an awesome scenery. Very good for stress relief *thumbs up*

I think going to matriculation was one of the best things that happened in my life. It changed who I am, from what I used to be. I used to be a very very shy person who couldn't speak up at all. In short, I was useless. I hated the me of that time. Being away from home taught me to be stronger and more independent. I think I opened up a bit after coming back from matrix.

But I think there was one shortcoming from my matrix experience. Fights with roommates! Arguments between roommates are unavoidable because you'll be with them in the room most of the time. You get to learn their bad sides and their good sides. You also find out things that you do that annoy your roommates (in my case, I laugh uncontrollably when I watch funny dramas). I know I was annoying, so I try suppressing my laughter, or watched my dramas in other friends' rooms who don't mind laughing with me. But one of the roommates couldn't stand me (and she couldn't stand another roommate who likes to sing while studying), blames us for interrupting her studies, and stormed out of the room 2 weeks before finals. I was already stressed with the nearing finals, so I guess I broke down when she left the room. I really couldn't stand her. She blamed us for making so much noise but she herself makes an equal amount of noise too. Noise from roommates is unavoidable. You have to put up with it. But I guess she too was stressed because she had boyfriend problems. Until now I still haven't made up with her... I really should though...

In UM I too have roommate problems. I have a roommate who likes to talk on her handphone when I'm studying or when I'm about to sleep. Do you know how annoying it is, when you're sleepy and want to sleep early to be fresh the next day for class, your roommate starts talking (did I mention loudly?) on the phone. She talks and talks and talks and you lay awake in bed for an hour before she finally shuts up. But I put up with her because I didn't want the same problem to occur from matrix. So I guess that's why we aren't so close like other roommates. (I'm kinda sorry for my roommate though)

[somehow this is becoming a rant, ahha ^^;;]

Anyway, going to UM is a good experience too. I learnt to be responsible. Not a lot but a bit. I was kind of active in college activities. You get to know more people, and have a bit of fun. I kinda enjoyed my first semester, but I guessed I played too much till I failed my first semester exam =_=;; . But after working harder in my second semester, I passed my MBBS course (thank god!)

I'm going to be in my second year soon. I hope I won't encounter any serious problems.

I don't like the recession :C

Because I can't buy the things I want even though they're cheap.
AND I keep getting these urges to buy useless things D:
SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME? ;3;

I know I shouldn't spend so much. I hate myself for this :C

I have problems with typing 'E' at the moment. It doesn't like me ;3;

WARNING! This is a rant D:

My younger siblings are fucking lazy asses D:
Especially Hanna D:
*Oh hail the lazy highness* ... or maybe the Queen of bitchiness.
I mean, wanna ask to wash a few plates also need to merajuk D:
And is it so hard for her to actually help mama around with stuffs in the house?
(and I don't care if she reads this D:)

Faiz on the other hand will make one thousand and one reasons why he should not move his lazy ass to do some chores. He's like, Diva no.2 (No.1 goes to Hanna)

And my parents don't scold them as often as they scolded me or my brother on the excuse that they're 'too old and tired' to layan them. Now, if it were me...

And Imran. Argh, do I even need to mention? He plays the wii till 2 a.m. even though exams are nearing D: Luckily I caught him, or he could have stayed awake the whole night D:

Yeah yeah, I know I myself was a brat in the olden days. But I've started washing plates when I was Faiz's age. I think he doesn't even know how to do it D:

And yes, I know I was a bad example for Imran because I myself was the one who started the 'wake up at night to play the PC' thing. But, exam week! He should at least refrain himself there. He's taking SPM this year for goodness sake D: I know I wasn't stupid enough to sacrifice exams for games.

And last of all, the eating habit! Faiz and Hanna buys sweets practically once every 3 days. Darn 7eleven to be near the house. Although I myself am a sweet tooth, I know when I should stop taking sweets (although I know some out there might find it hard to believe this, ahha)

Lemme quote a conversation that went between Faiz and me

Me : Faiz, you should drink plain water more often than gassy drinks
Faiz : No, I don't like plain water. It's bitter.
Me : ...

And when I tell my dad to not buy carbonated drinks (and asked him to buy more juice), he came back from tesco with 2 bottles of 100 plus and 2 six-pack sweet drinks. Yeah,very healthy there. But I guess it's better than the previous Tesco trip; then it had the 100 plus AND 2 bottle of cola. Urgh, THE SUGAR D:
I fear for my younger siblings sugar level ;3;

And although I rant about my siblings A LOT... I can't help but love them :C
I can't get angry at them long enough D:

Ah, I love the holidays <3

I've been going out practically every few days lately.
Watched Angels and Demons last week. The book was definitely better.

*SPOILER WARNING* (highlight to read)
They didn't mention the the pope having a son. That is like, the basis of the goddamn book D:

*sigh*Anyway...
IT'S A RITUAL FOR ME TO PLAY THE WII IN THE MORNINGS.
Teeheeheehee *insert freaky smiley face here*
I'm addicted to Rune Factory Frontiers.
It still amazes me how farming on a game console can be such fun.

Holidays here I come!!!

I passed my exams. I FEEL SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW TTwTT

Ugh...

I need a holiday >:C

Pray for me please?
sothatIcanpassmyexams ;3;

I need to...

...concentrate on studies and stop looking at pretty clothes.

That is all D:

American Idol

I don't know why people like Adam Lambert that much. I mean, his voice ain't that great. It sounds like someone having some serious constipation (case in point : ring of fire). But I guess people of today like constipating noises?

And I wish Anoop would stop mumbling. It's a pity since I like his voice.

[ although mind you, I don't watch American Idol much. I just watched it on Youtube ;D ]

Jason Mraz

Went to his concert at Stadium Negara Last Wednesday.

Now his concert was something ;D

His live voice is definitely 3184617413278 times better than the recorded ones. And that is something coming out from me as I'm not much of a Jason Mraz fan. Heck, even my pretty boys don't sound as good as him (sorry) although he doesn't dance well like my pretty boys... but Jason Mraz dancing won't really suit his style of music, don't you think?

There was a Malaysian (?) female artist who sang Lucky with Jason Mraz. Dunno who she was but she wasn't that good. Heck, I think it sounded better when the audience was singing along at the beginning (she was late in making her entry into the song)

Racial discrimination?

I read a blog of someone I know from college, and he was talking about some racial issues in UM. He was a Chinese and he was helping a foreign student to get into a nearer residential college to the faculty. The Malay office lady was acting indifferent to his attempts to ask if there were any rooms available. It kinda pissed me off when she gave him the cold shoulder. Sometimes I'm ashamed to be half Malay, thinking how some of the Malays have such closed minds. Ignoring people just because they're not Malay. It happened to me a few times too, because I'm very chinese looking. It's kind of amusing sometimes. They can give me the cold treatment at first, but when they find out that I'm half Malay, or Muslim, or when they notice that my BM is too good, you can really see the 360' change of attitude.

But then, being half Chinese ain't good either. The 'pure' Chinese don't like those who are 'bananas', yellow outside but white inside : meaning they look Chinese, but can only talk in English. But then, I don't think the Chinese here ain't bad. Most of them are willing to befriend me, so I haven't encountered any problems so far. And I do know a few other 'bananas' such as myself... only that they aren't mixed. I guess it's much harder for them cause they don't have an excuse of being mixed.

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I'm too lazy to think of a title D:

Anyway, it's been a while since my last post. Our MPIS dinner was held early this month. The location was okay but the food weren't that great. I felt kinda guilty eating the shark's fin :C

But i saw lots of wacky clothes there. There was this second (or may I say first?) year d00d who dressed up like a Japanese punk from Harajuku. I wanted to take a picture of him but... he went away before I had the chance to take a shot with my phone :C . Surprisingly he won best dressed. If it were me, I'd call it weird... and that's a complement coming for me. I just adore people who dresses weird (likemyself*cofcof*). The female best dressed went to a final year. She sure had some weird+BIG headpiece. I wonder how she can walk with that thing balanced on her head. And it was SHINY... D:

So in a nutshell, you have to be brave enough to dress weird to win best dressed.

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My finals are coming soon. It scares me to know I have to pass this to not take supplementary classes. I WANT MY 2 MONTH HOLIDAY GODDARNIT D:

I hope that's enough to get me studying. I need someone to nag me to study D:

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... And I have a camp with the 4th year seniors tomorrow. I hope it's not stressful or anything. I'm lazy to go... but it's free and it's somewhat a good way to relax.

Weekend report!

FIS was held last weekend. Meh, I thought it was gonna be a big big BIG thing, but it turned out to be kinda medium-sized... or small depending on how you wanna look at it. But i was tired as HELL D: [My thigh still aches from all that bending around ;3;]

I kept some of the guppy fish we used in the fishing game(with paper nets). They are such adorable little things <333. I hope they can last I mean live long.

Some of my relatives came over too. WHY DIDN'T YOU PLAY THE GAMES NINA? D: You could have won that PSP... or at least an mp3... thenyoucanpassittomesinceyoualreadyhaveanipod ;D

And and and Siew Ling came over too xD [she's a tutor-mate of mine during matriculation]. She was all lovey dovey with her boy. Aww, they're so cute together. I thought they couldn't last a long distance relationship but I guess I was wrong. You go girl~ Taratara tha that girl. [Lee HyoRi's song is stuck in my head D:]

I can't believe I'm doing this...

I thought I'd try this out... at least once in my lifetime D:
[I know I should be studying right now though >_>;;]

1.Does anyone know your passwords besides yourself?
¤ Yush.
2. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds?
¤ Uhm... what was it that I ate again? I think it was some type of burger...
3. Are you an emotional person?
¤ Yes ;3;
4. Do you like your name?
¤ Depends... [yes, i do >_>... my parents gave me that name]
5. Do you believe in love at first sight?
¤ NO. They're all liesssss.
6. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
¤ A lot.
7. What was the last thing you did?
¤ Bully Mika
8. Who is right next to you?
¤ The air~
9. Who were the last persons you ate with?
¤ My aunt and Nina.
10. What song are you listening to right now?
¤ Not playing anything now... surprisingly.
11. How's the weather right now ?
¤ Cloudy... pleasedon'trainthisweekend D:
12. Last person who called you today?
¤ My mom C;
13.???
¤ Wut?
14. Last song you sang?
¤ Nan noreul saranghae~ Big Bang's Sunset Glow
15. Do you like anyone?
¤ Obviously ;D
16. Lost a friendship over something stupid?
¤ Yes. It was very stupid of me :C
17. Last beverage you drank?
¤ Soy milk ;D
18. Last food you ate?
¤ Rice, vege, meat and prawns :B
19. What did you do last night?
¤ Use my laptop... as always~
20. Faked being sick to miss school?
¤ No... I'm a good girl ;D
21. What time did you wake up today?
¤ 8.00 a.m. I think.
22. Last person you talked to?
¤ My aunt.
23. Last person you made fun of?
¤ Some model on America's Next Top Model.
24. What are you wearing right now?
¤ A pink striped T-shirt ;D
25. Are you too quiet to ask anyone out?
¤ Yes
26. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
¤ PRETTY FAICE ;D
27.Where are you right now?
¤ In front of my laptop?
28. What date and day is it?
¤ 4th January, Sunday.
29. Did you go anywhere today?
¤ Aunt's place... and Jusco~
30. What did you do there?
¤ Eat... and buy meat for lunch :B
31. Where else are you going today?
¤ No. Today's gonna end in an hour.
32. Are you watching TV?
¤ No. I'm lazy right now. THE LAPTOP'S MORE INTERESTING. Muhahaha.
33. Are you mature or immature?
¤ Both?
34. Are you closer to your mom or dad?
¤ Mom I guess...
35. When was your last kiss?
¤ Yesterday... with Mika ;D [what were you thinking?]
36. What school do you go to?
¤ More like what school did I go to. Convent Pulau Tikus :B
37. What's the most annoying thing people say to you?
¤ Sara. My name has an 'H' at the end :C
38. Do you like music?
¤ Yush. Especiallythosewithprettyboysinthem :B
39. Do you want to get married?
¤ Uh-huh.
40. to whom?
¤ I can't really say that right now since I'm single and stuffs :C

Reminiscing 2008

Well, the last year was full of ups and downs. But I guess I'll be seeing them too this year.

Sometimes I can't believe events that had happened in the previous year. Somehow I've gotten slightly braver... but still a coward nonetheless. I need to talk often.... and BETTER [ yes, I'm a mumbling idiot. Typing is much more easier :C ] . I still haven't made more new friends. I feel like I've isolated myself from society. It's so hard to make new acquaintances *weeps*. And my results... well I failed so shush. I need to work harder this year... AND GET MYSELF AND IPOD. lame, I know :B [ but it's HARD to keep an mp3 that still runs on batteries :C ]

Anyway, I guess those are the only things I'm unsatisfied from the previous year.

Changes I've made.... hmmm... I guess the way I present myself. I remembered once upon a time I was kinda obsessed with black... now I'm obsessed with bright colours [ESPECIALLY YELLOW COLOURED NAIL POLISH... and not forgetting my favourite colour green :B]. And when I was younger I ignored all types of fashion magazines for teenagers. Now I read CLEO~ . It's amusing how time changes you.

I guess that's all.... I'm too lazy to type more and think of more things to type. [and people would say... how did this lazy girl get herself into medicine in UM xD]

I'm looking forward for this year ;D

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On a side note, my residential college in UM (6th college, Ibnu Sina) is holding an expo/festival on the 10th and 11th of January. EVERYONE is welcomed to join in the fun. There'll be plenty of games [in which I'm in charge of a few], booths, and there is also a blood and organ donation drive. Be sure not to miss it ;D